38 Weeks

I'm due soon and feel so prepared...and again, so NOT prepared.  Mom of 3?  Can I do this infant thing all over again?  What am I thinking?  Those sleepless nights turn me into a mombie (mom-zombie).  Not to mention how tired I get of nursing the baby around the clock.  Is it really all worth it??  Yes and No I guess. 

The last 2 weeks have been exponentially hard.  I am taking a brief hiatus from VIPKID so I can relax with Jordan at night before the baby but Jordan has just lost his job and so now I'm torn.  Do I get the rest I need or do I try and fill my schedule with classes to help with our income?  I'm able to make money right now, whereas Jordan can't.  His hot dog cart has been broken for a little over a week and a half at this point.  I feel so defeated in my quest for happiness.  This will be the 3rd job change for Jordan in almost our 6 years of marriage. 

What is the answer to all of this madness.  I feel we will never move out of this house.  So trapped.  So struck with financial challenges.  How am I supposed to be a good mom when I'm so tired from a new baby and working?!!!  What if this baby doesn't take a bottle or pacifier either?  What if Jordan doesn't find work for several weeks.  Ok.  I'm going to stop before I start crying again.  It's all so unfair.  This is NOT what I signed up for.  But then again, life never asked me what I wanted.

Baby 3 is coming soon...

After a long hiatus, I'm back briefly...cuz I have time right now...when I should be doing more important things...right? ha ha 

Baby 3 is set due on or HOPEFULLY before June 1st!  We have somewhat kept the gender a secret from our family but since I'm 100% sure none of them look at this blog, I feel it's safe to say....IT'S ANOTHER BOY!  His first name has been picked but no mention of a middle name has happened yet. 

(this is 30 weeks)...using my Mac camera

Some other fun pictures pulled from my computer of the kids and I just lounging on the couch.

Family of 4

Hey!  So, it's obviously soon but I wanted to say...baby number 2 is on her way!  Yep.  Due date is October 25th.  We'll see if she makes that time frame or not.  Sort of hoping for a late baby because I'd like to make it to Halloween with Lincoln but...I guess no one can make any promises at this point.  Can't wait to meet the little munchkin.

I think I'm more excited than Jordan.  He wishes it were a boy but; we can't all have what we want can we?  Ha ha...  I'm having such a hard time not buying girly stuff!!!  Seriously!

15 weeks left!!!

Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Change is Comin!

Well, wow. December got skipped.  I don't want January to get passed by too!  Lincoln is taking an epic nap today so I'm trying to get some things done, like update the blog!  (OH no!  And of course he wakes up now.)  Well, guess I'll make this fast.

Jordan got fired from NCU.  I'm pretty peeved about how they handled that but I guess him leaving there is for the best.  I really didn't like him driving an hour every day in traffic.  He went back to Prima Vera.  It's only been 2 days but I think he is a lot less stressed out being there.  And, even if he isn't making as much, that's good to me.

The last day at the Down East store I was working at is this Friday.  Then, I'm supposedly moving to another store.  I'm hoping I'll like it there.  We will see.  One of the girls in my ward works there.

Lincoln is almost 9 months now!  Holy smokes, time has flown by!  He has learned to scoot around and he gets into EVERYTHING.  Puts anything in his mouth.  and LOVES to torment the cat. ha ha.  We love him so much!  Well, he is crying in his crib.  Better go grab him!  Laterz!

Busy Bees!

Did I mention I work at Down East Basics now?  Yup.  Just a seasonal job though.  Who knows WHAT I'll be doing after the end of December. I do work for my parents occasionally and I also just took on another job as an Au Pair Area director.  (still learning what it is I'm supposed to do)  I only need to make a couple hundred a month for us to pay our bills but, I like to have a little extra too.  Just in case I want to eat at Taco Bell from time to time. ha ha.

I should be preparing my Sunday lesson right now.  Boy am I going to be in trouble if I don't because I work at Down East tonight until closing and I'm wiped after work so...I better get going.

More pics of Lincoln...cuz let's face it.   I'm OBSESSED with this little guy!!!

Feeling Blessed

Of course this time of year, we always reflect on things we are thankful for and I have so much to be appreciative of, how could I not list them?!

In no particular order...well...maybe...

1. My son
2. My husband
3. My home
4. My husband's job
5. Our cars
6. My family (and how much they give of their free time to babysit Lincoln)
7. My church (and calling)
8. a space heater (for when I shower and want the bathroom to be toasty warm)
9. My ability to breastfeed Lincoln
10. Netflix (ha ha)
11. My 3 jobs
12. SLEEP! (which is very scarce these days but still amazing when I get it)
13. Lincoln napping
14. awesome fall/winter weather 
15. Days off from work to spend with family
16. Great co-workers

Ok, ok, the list could go on and on!  I'll stop there though.

Lincoln is now just over 6 months old.  Time seems to have flown by and yet dragged on and on.  People say that I shouldn't
wish for him to grow up but I'm sorry, I love that he is growing up and becoming a little independent boy.  I love seeing him discover the world around him and become more aware of his surroundings!  He is getting more of a personality and more playful.  His smile always brightens my day.  

He still isn't really rolling over yet but his new thing he loves to do, besides sit up, is to sleep on his side.  I think he is getting tired of sleeping on his back and I don't blame him!  I don't like to sleep on my back either!

As for Jordan, he is working lots and lots and doing some school on the side.  Kudos to him for being able to balance all that, his church calling, and have time for his family.  It's tough right now since I work, and he works, and goes to school; we don't get to hang out except for that small window of time we are laying in bed about to fall asleep.  Hopefully it doesn't last too long.  I miss my date nights and one on one time with my husband with out baby.

First trip to Costco sitting in the toddler spot.  He really enjoyed himself!

Sleeping in one of his warm sleeper outfits.  He is so freaking cute!

Doing Karie's nails while baby sleeps!

Bath time is usually lots of fun!

Getting read for our morning walks, Lincoln is being a ham.

Boy does he love to chew on everything!

Bumbo time

He always wants to sit up now.  None of this sitting back stuff.

My Poor Husband

Every once and a while (meaning every couple days) I have a melt down about something.  This weekend was one of those times.  It was a great Saturday.  I got to do crafts and go to a baby shower with my mom.  I had a great time...except that baby was in tow and would NOT sleep.  I knew he wouldn't but there was a small part of me that hoped he would for my sanity's sake.  NOPE.  At the end of the day, he would NOT go to sleep either!  I was going crazy!

I finally admitted to my husband the lack of patience left in me and that I felt like I was going insane.  (I can understand how some mothers out there might just go missing for a day or two.)  This mommy stuff is TOUGH business.

I am so emotionally and physically spent 5 months into our first child that I can't fathom having any other children.  It's tough to admit when I've wanted kids of my own for SO long.  I love my son but I just haven't had very much "me" time since he was born and it's really been hard on me.

When I got married my husband and I agreed on 4 or 5 kids...at this point, I think he'll be lucky if I can manage to say yes to 2.

On a completely different note, my "call center" job will most likely be ending soon. (After elections are over, no one cares to know what the general public thinks about the candidates on the ballot).  Anyways, so I'm attempting to get another job.  I had an interview at the Down East Basics Home Goods store but they didn't find my "availability" a good fit for their store.  (I said I was only available in the evenings).  However, another Down East Basics in Tempe called me for an interview on Thursday.  Hopefully I get it.  I'm trying to decide what schedule I'll tell them I can do.  Since I'm not ready for some random person to watch my son yet, I have to rely on my family's availability and work off of their schedule.  Makes things complicated sometimes but so far it has worked.

Jordan is busy these days with his 2 school classes-online math and PE/Exercise class and his full time job in Scottsdale.  He is such a good husband, a girl couldn't ask for a more loving daddy for her baby.

That's all for night.  A picture or two and then it's off to bed I go.  Let's cross our fingers Lincoln lets me sleep for more than 3 hours at a time!!!

Being so patient while mommy gets ready in the morning.

He is so stinking cute!!!!